update

so this is a post because shawnee kept telling me i needed to write hahah but i dont like to talk much about it so hopefully this will make up for it all hahaha

 since the last post  hmm i am graphic designing now at my work i was dating a girl her name is shayla she was wonderful but it didnt work out why i will tell you why here ya go this is the first time i am going to talk about why it didnt work so first shayla had a hard time trusting me why i dont know she says it is becuase guys in her past and ok i can understand that then she started to trust me and i was having a hard tome trusting her why hahaha becuase not only would she text other guys why we were together but she would not stop flirting with any of them but when  i would say anything she would try and say that they dont matter and she has feelings for me but yet she would keep flirting so it was hard for me to fully trust her but i tried also those who know me know that i try to always be a gentalman and give the girl everything she need or even wants so moving on also i dont like using periods and other things unless i am writing a paper then i will but other then that bugger off back to the subject at hand so shayla and i tried to work things out and she was doing alot better and i was proud iof her but then she went on a date and didnt tell me bout it now i ma not usually a jeoulis guy but i was that time why i dont know so i was pissed and just couldnt do it if she was going to be still trying to be with other guys NOT COOL why is it so hard to belive that i am for real plus that whole to good to be true is a bunch of crap anyway so her and i ended things and yes we are still friends oh that is right most ppl cant do that well i am so suck it now moving on went to california for 2 weeks and i surfed for a week and then chilled at my grandparents house but it was hard becuase i saw how old they were and it sucked becuace i had to help take care of them not like it was a bad thing but it was hard to see these ppl who helped raise you and where always there even though they lived 700 ish miles away cant do what they use to  anyway  that was tough moving on i am still battling with depression alittle but i am still working on it and i am not even close to what i was when i came home from the mission but now things are moving forward one of my best friends got married to and awsome girl way to be dan and brit i dissappared from some of my other firends and here is why ready hahaha becuase i never felt accpeted with them why i donno just didnt not at their fault just felt like no one wanted me around  so i would dissappear and i am good at it as anyone hahaha my little brother is going to leave on his mission soon i am stoked for him i went to zions national park with my fam valan wasnt there though but i got to spend alot of time with ty jill and megan i was stoked about that i love my niece i still cant sleep till like 2 or 3 in the freaking morning but i am so use to it by now i ne to wyoming for my job hahaha that was pretty fun we got it done in 4 days it was sweet but now i am just working as a graphioc designer and i hang out with probly the ppl reading this blog hahaha anyway if you ahve questions just freaking ask me also i know there are alot of spelling corrections that need to be made but to bad i dont want to so live with it hahaha

any who shawnee i hope this is good for you hahaha anyway love you all and see you soon enough  

-love riley -